The Stragety

The keys to success in this endeavor will be:

1 - exercising instead of eating in response to emotional issues. I noticed that all this week I had virtually NO appetite. Coincidentally, I am starting an exciting new job tomorrow. It shows me that my "appetite" has been spiking due to my general unhappiness in life. "Cravings" are not physical for me. My cravings are based on emotional issues. When I start focusing on food, it's like an addict thinking about a hit. If possible, I need to exercise in response.

2 - building an hour of feel-good cardio into my schedule 5 days a week and adding some weight-bearing exercise as well. Body weight exercises are good, as they hit the small groups as well as the larger muscles. It's easier to isolate groups on a weight machine, which can lead to injuries (isolation, and over-development of large muscles in comparison to small muscles, that is).

3 - stop ignoring things that make me unhappy. Make myself happy. Focus on what I want and try to give it to myself. Right now, I miss my furbaby and want to rescue another westie. It feels disrespectful to do it so soon, but I see it as my furbaby carved a place for himself in my heart for 13 years, 7 months, three weeks and one day, and because he did, another life can be saved. I am a very nurturing person and I really need to perform that function.

The idea that I would have to trust another vet fucking enrages me.

4 - no diet restrictions. They're not necessary and they are counter-productive. The pendulum always swings back. Just need to pay attention when I'm unhappy and address it.

5 - a clear goal. I have been in conflict about what I wanted. I am not capable of having an hourglass figure without too much fat. When I have a flat tummy, I am kind of a stick. I feel very boyish. I would *like* to be curvy like my beautiful cousin, who looks like Beyonce, and could have curvy hips and a flat tummy. But I want the flat tummy more than I want to keep curves. I just made that decision based on my friend's bikini shot.

6 - a strategy for dealing with unwanted attention. there is a benefit to carrying around extra lbs. I feel safe walking the streets. I don't feel like a target. I really don't like attention. I'll have to think more about personal safety, if I'm of a size that's easy to pick up!!

Incentive Plan, parte trois

When I acquire the flat tummy - it will be all about the lingerie and bikinis!!!











I'm into the demi's and balconets (sp?) This purple one is Betsey Johnson!!!

Next is Cosabella "Lexy"...













La Perla "Passion de Fleur"














And, to complete the list of age-inappropriate gear for flat tummies, the Juicy velour tracksuit!!






I will then be turning in to my grandmother, who used to wear halters and white shorts all the time for my grandfather. That was really sweet. She loved him a lot. But I think good hetero relationships are just a myth... a lie society used to tell itself. Not sure I believe they are real. hmm

Incentive plan parte deux

Second 25 pounds lost, LV purse? or LV wallet?

I know I like the Emilie wallet with red trim.

As far as handbags, some people like the Speedy, i like the Wilshire PM. Maybe I should just rededicate to veganism and eschew all this crap, with its leather trim!!!

Incentive plan

First 25 pounds lost, a piece of jewelry.

I have always been partial to David Yurman, and I love purple, so...

This amethyst noblesse necklace is an obsession.

...not to mention this 7mm amethyst bracelet.

Not sure I want to spend the money, but I really like them...

New focus on the blog

I'm not cooking anymore. Since the last post, I am STILL wearing the effects of all that baking.


I wanna hot bikini body like my friend/neighbor, who shall remain nameless.

I don't care that my boobs will shrink to almost nothing. I just want a flat lower tummy!! This blog will be dedicated to my random musings while on this journey.


FIRST of all, when I get there, this will be my bikini I like the color and it looks supportive. Plus, the top will be half empty, so... LOL

More pics that motivate: I LOVE Angie Harmon in this dress!!

The dress is so freaking Texas that it makes me homesick for my Grandmother!! It's just adorable to me!!

This is the kind of dress my Grandmother would just impulsively buy me when she went to Neiman's and just *force* me to wear. She thought I dressed to drab for a young person. LOL.

Oh yeah, I used to have a friend named David used to care enough to read my blog. But he wouldn't even meet me for a cup of coffee. I'm soooo saddd! :-(